Excerpts for NaNoWriMo

I updated my National Novel Writing Month profile/author info today. It includes sections to see excerpts of previous Novels written for NaNoWriMo and I'm a little bit afraid of sharing it. What will people think of me? Will my family and friends be driven away by my writings? My thoughts?

I have always had anxiety and worry about not measuring up to the expectations that I have for myself and from others. I never fit in anywhere, never felt good enough, but I realize as I get older that in fact, I do fit in. I have a voice. I have a modicum of talent, though how to express it to its fullest extent is scary and unknown to me.

I want to share who I am. If people give me strange looks or think differently of me, so be it.

http://nanowrimo.org/participants/dayzeedesigns

A few years ago... okay, it was nearly 10 years ago, I had a very intense impression upon my mind while I was at church. If you know my life, you will know that I spent many years away from Church and trying to figure out just what was true (for me. I am not a preachy person and I am not here to say my way is the only way.). I come from a very spiritual, deeply entrenched in the Church culture and to break away from that was impossible. It it part of my DNA, I think!  However, the dogma and platitudes spoken in a church meeting do not add up to my own experiences in life. LIFE HAPPENS. CRAP HAPPENS. It's all about what you do with the experiences.

I went off on a tangent. I know, big surprise. While I was in this church meeting, I was not thinking about anything in particular. I was there because I had already had an intense experience that I had to go back to church. I did not WANT to go back to church. I had faith, however, that if I followed my own spiritual promptings that things would be okay. Things beyond my control would be okay. So, I was there that day. My girls didn't want to go to church with me that day and so I was alone. I felt that impression, that thought came to my mind, that in fact writing was what I was supposed to do.

For decades I have written fiction and been too afraid to share it.  I won't share everything I write, but I will cease to be ashamed. 

So, if you go and peek at my novel excerpts, do so at your own risk!  ha ha ha  Life is not G-Rated and I write about life.

-- Dece aka DayzeeDesigns aka GlacierWhite

NaNoWriMo 2015

I am very sick but being stuck in bed may help to get a story I have uninterrupted! 

The idea came to me as I was at home the first night after being in the hospital for dehydration. I still do not know what has caused these digestive issues, but we're working on that. At 41 and a mother of 3, I'm too young for this mess!! 

I had a dream that was very vivid, very intense. It will be the base of my story to come and it will feel good to express it. It involves the future, polygamy becoming legal, the feelings of betrayal and potential loss of a love that spans decades, and illnesses that I have faced in my own life.  Illnesses that my mother and grandmother faced as well.

I don't know if I will be able to express the vision I had or the emotions that I felt, but I will do my best. Starting November 1, this Sunday, I begin my journey of exploration.  Wheeeeeee!

Dece - aka dayzeedesigns