Excerpts for NaNoWriMo

I updated my National Novel Writing Month profile/author info today. It includes sections to see excerpts of previous Novels written for NaNoWriMo and I'm a little bit afraid of sharing it. What will people think of me? Will my family and friends be driven away by my writings? My thoughts?

I have always had anxiety and worry about not measuring up to the expectations that I have for myself and from others. I never fit in anywhere, never felt good enough, but I realize as I get older that in fact, I do fit in. I have a voice. I have a modicum of talent, though how to express it to its fullest extent is scary and unknown to me.

I want to share who I am. If people give me strange looks or think differently of me, so be it.

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A few years ago... okay, it was nearly 10 years ago, I had a very intense impression upon my mind while I was at church. If you know my life, you will know that I spent many years away from Church and trying to figure out just what was true (for me. I am not a preachy person and I am not here to say my way is the only way.). I come from a very spiritual, deeply entrenched in the Church culture and to break away from that was impossible. It it part of my DNA, I think!  However, the dogma and platitudes spoken in a church meeting do not add up to my own experiences in life. LIFE HAPPENS. CRAP HAPPENS. It's all about what you do with the experiences.

I went off on a tangent. I know, big surprise. While I was in this church meeting, I was not thinking about anything in particular. I was there because I had already had an intense experience that I had to go back to church. I did not WANT to go back to church. I had faith, however, that if I followed my own spiritual promptings that things would be okay. Things beyond my control would be okay. So, I was there that day. My girls didn't want to go to church with me that day and so I was alone. I felt that impression, that thought came to my mind, that in fact writing was what I was supposed to do.

For decades I have written fiction and been too afraid to share it.  I won't share everything I write, but I will cease to be ashamed. 

So, if you go and peek at my novel excerpts, do so at your own risk!  ha ha ha  Life is not G-Rated and I write about life.

-- Dece aka DayzeeDesigns aka GlacierWhite