NaNoWriMo Day 10

First I want to say that I am up to 12,686 on my NaNoWriMo and I anticipate more writing tonight.

Secondly, I do not get any excitement in hearing that I am "enjoying the attention" of being ill, having incessant migraine, or anything else. It is demeaning at best. I do not have a physical cause, at least not that has been found, for my illness or migraine. The nausea and migraines have been keeping me awake/waking me in spite of my best efforts to abort them. I have other things on my mind, but if I found a legitimate pain relief I would share it with the world. I just had my daith pierced yesterday to attempt to get migraine relief. I'm desperate.

I am not looking to score pain meds. I'm not wanting this attention. I want to be myself again. I want to be the mom that bakes cookies and cooks and cleans and takes kids to piano lessons and therapies. I want to be the writer that I know I am! 

My character has this same problem. She is riddled with guilt that pain has caused her life to become one opiate after another. I can't even get the opiates prescribed to me, as they look at me like I'm a drug addict *thanks a TON pain clinic when I went for fibro relief! Yeah, doing yoga is going to fix everything. Maybe a visit to the neurologist will give me more options, but that's not for another week. I'm frustrated. Please forgive me for venting that here. Until next week, I will continue heat and ice therapies, taking the new dosage of sumatriptan, and pray for miracles.

Dece - dayzeedesigns - @glacierwhite